Earlier this year, I chose the “M” word, METHOD (as in Methodist) because I felt called to share my passionate thoughts and feelings about my experience of the Methodist church. M was not the appropriate sequential letter for that week, but…because I’m “Me”, I chose to do it anyway. The older I get, the more grace/permission/freedom I grant myself to truly express my heart, mind, and soul in truly authentic, often random methods.
Aging has managed to gift me something extraordinary: Me. I keep growing awareness of who I am, whose I am, and my power to choose what I want to create, who I choose to be, how I choose to feel, and what empowers my happiness. Accepting myself, however I show up, is learning to love me beyond conditions, a necessary prerequisite for loving all of creation the way God loves me.
This week’s Pause is M for “ME”—the “me” that all of us are individually; the “me” that I may ignore or put on the back burner; the same “me” that likes to grab center stage and selfish focus; the “me” that expresses as ego/personality, and the “me” that carries my physical body through life in this world as the temple for my holy spirit.
ME. Myself. I. All three united in a description of person. “He is he. She is she. I am I.” We label ourselves as separate souls, minds, hearts, and bodies, sharing the unity of spiritual experience in separate physical bodies. The paradox of “ME” comes with the growth in awareness that we are all interconnected—like (excuse the reference) fruits on a tree, or if the fruit analogy doesn’t grab your imagination, how about limbs, roots, branches, trunks, leaves of a tree—each piece a unique expression of the living, breathing, dying, seeding, birthing tree. The Tree of Life symbol is a favorite of mine because in that tree I see the individual, interconnected renditions of all creation, displaying with awe and wonder the greater wholeness we create with “me and thee” union.
I often write about how life is defined as “All of us are walking each other home.” I also write, ” ‘I’ don’t go home until we all go home.” We were created to be relationship beings. Perhaps, Source/Creator/God designed a cluster of grapes that God designed to be “mini-mes” (Bear with me, a.k.a., even a weird imagination is a source of inspiration). This cluster of like-minded souls chooses to experience life in a body as a physical manifestation of separate bodies, same soul energy. The visions, dreams, dharma, harmonies these souls harness as their calling support the others with whom they share vision and focus. When I meet someone that I feel drawn to immediately (a soul friend), I imagine him/her as one of my fellow cluster mates, and I feel grateful, blessed, encouraged, and inspired by my association with him/her, a mirror of me, reflecting who I am called to be at a soul level.
Who I am, what I choose to create, where I go, what I do—these choices are MY freedom to be, do, have, and belong, wherever I am. What impacts these choices most often comes from the mirrors around me, the “other-mini-mes”, and a desire to contribute, commit and be responsible to and for the greater good of all creation. With age and growth come authenticity, which allows the true ME to sing my soul song and listen for the beautiful melodies of other soul songs. I embrace good, love, and possibility in every amazing creation, and I give thanks for our outer diversity and our inner connection. The marriage of thee and me into the greater blessing of a great I AM or the everyday notion of “WE” is integration, blessing, and relationship at its highest level in Earth School. Life is sweet, filled with grace, gratitude, openness, and acceptance. Our walk home together is joyful, and the tree of life is glory manifest.
“I’ve gotta be Me” is a refrain I hear often. How about we choose to be the best me we can be?
And so it is.