A Pause to/for QUESTIONS
This week’s pause is to consider the gift, art, and blessing of questioning as an inspiring means to navigate through life. I believe answers are ethereal, subjective, non-absolute because they continually morph into more questions. This belief justifies my proposition that the only way to reach any kind of resolution is to infinitely question and be open to what questioning unfolds. Our lives were created for discovering, uncovering and recovering. The way we travel most efficiently and gracefully is wading, wandering, and wallowing in the questions, learning to be comfortable with the asking rather than the receiving; the uncertainty, rather than the knowing; remembering that what we think we know today may be a fragile foundation for tomorrow. How one question resolved itself yesterday doesn’t assume it will do the same or similarly in the here and now.
Questioning allows us to greet every moment with hope, inquiry, and possibility; making room for surprise and inspiration to color every becoming, unfolding adventure.
To question is to ask. It is to assume I don’t know what I don’t know. I get to allow infinite opportunity for my questions to unfold into my experience and learning. When I ask, I receive—answers or more questions. It’s the unfolding of the questions that gifts me life experience: learning, loving, and God/Good, Love, Possibility.
Over a decade ago, I felt inspired to live my questions into an experience. A workshop called GRACEFUL DIRECTIONS was the result. Twenty women joined me for a ninety day foray into exploring our personal foundations for living the questions of our lives. The focus and our mission were to live our questions centered in grace (and its human equivalent) and to be comfortable with where we were in the moment with “just enough light for the step I’m on”. Every week brought questions and more questioning. It was unique and connecting transformation for all of us.
The power of blessing and change that comes from a methodology of questioning allows me to grow and empowers my choices. Questioning and the vulnerability it brings me lead me to accept what I don’t know (and that I don’t need to know everything) serving me a transformative method at its finest: beginner’s mind, humility, a commitment to new beginning and beginning again (a.k.a., “Here I am, Lord.”).
My favorite questions include, “Who am I? What is my purpose? What can I learn? How can I love? Where is the gift of this experience? Where are you, God? What do I long for? What do I vision? How may I serve?”
The question, “WHY?”, repeats itself over and over and over again in my heart, soul, body, and mind as I question the horrors, suffering, pains, and monstrosities in our world. There are NO answers to “WHY?”. I keep asking God to help me to live all of my who, what, where, when, and how questions into authentic being so that I may be an instrument for love and peace in the world. How can I be better? How can I serve the highest good? What can I pray?
And, at the same time that I question my striving to be the best me I can be, I recognize that we’re all living in this crazy Earth school together, so perhaps a more noble question becomes, “How can I forgive and love myself and extend that love and forgiveness to all experience—every sentient being, creating room for light, possibility and hope?”
Grace. How do I live it? Where does it lead me?
Thank you, God.